Cancer

My mother told me last night that my grandmother's cancer had come back with a vengeance.  what WAS breast cancer in remission has now turned into spots on her liver and lungs.  trying a "new" drug treatment coming up soon.  the doctor told my grandmother that if this didn't work (we still have other options) that she is looking at maybe a year.  when faced with a finite time frame for your life, what is the first thing you do?  my grandmother has never been one to hold her tongue and she loves more than anyone i know.  i think she is gonna fight cancer until her last breath, exhaust all options until cancer overcomes her.  when faced with the realization that we are mortal beings, why go through life miserable?  why be negative?  reminds me of that poem:  i will not go quietly into that dark night, i will not go without a fight.  this is a metaphor for life and obstacles.  make things happen for yourself in this world.  don't wait on your own personal cancer to come and overtake you.  meet it (whatever it is) head on and stand there and fight.  be the ebb to the worlds flow.  be the peak in a range full of valleys.  be the light that shines in the sea of darkness.  be hope.  i love you mrs. dorothy whitlock.  i can only hope to be as strong as you when i face my life's cancer.  i want you to know you are not alone.  i hope with you. 

in the limitless pursuit. 

email sent

the email i had a great time writing is now sent in the world of cyberspace.  i hope it finds hands willing and open minded.  the ball is in their court now.



here we go.

LOVE

when was the last time you told someone you love them and really mean it?  Has it been too long?  This simple gesture has a huge impact on someone's day. 

i am going write an email today that could possibly change my life.  let's hope the person reading it realizes the impact their decision will have. 

in other news yesterday jim tressel (former coach for ohio state) admitted that he knew of his team's misdoings and did nothing about it.  to be honest i would have done the exact same thing.  as a coach, you get the opportunity to help change athlete's lives.  you become a mentor, a father figure.  at that root is love.  love is not rational.  i am sure mr tressel loves his players (every one that walked through that door)  and would do anything a father would to protect them and give them the best opportunities possible. 

the new start to the blog

i want to do a lecture series entitled finding your best self.  this has been over a year long revelation for me.  i want to help educate people on attaining something greater than they have now.  it all stems from my current models of food and behavior.  influences are robb wolf, mark sisson, john welbourne, not necessarily crossfit, but the idea of mixing things up and trying them for yourself.  i want to help awaken people to find their best self, be it eating better (real food) exercising (not too many met-cons) playing (man this really resonates with me now) loving more, doing what you want to do in life, and being completely healthy, not just well, but healthy fit.  i really hope to start tackling this soon.  i want to see how many lives i can affect in 2012, but hell let's start now!